Four Years Gone (And I Wonder Why)
Written in July 2009
Verse 1:
At first it was just you and me
Good friends but you could say more
And then this guy just came to me
And my heart began to soar
And although we became closer
I was still crazy over you
Didn't know how you'd feel, so I kept them sealed
Wish I'd said my feelings true
Now I'm in this position which I feel wrong
All these memories of you float by
Four years gone
And I wonder why
Chorus:
Four years gone
And I wonder why
I was the slut I used to be
All these memories running through my head
Of him and you and me
I thought I had the perfect love
Til I watched you ride away
Then I saw you crash your motorbike
Your last breaths dying away
Verse 2:
You and I were meant to be
But my feelings stayed locked in
And then when he came on the scene
His looks pulled me close to him
It opened all the doors for me
I was well-known with girls and men
You drifted out of the clouds of my mind
My heart beat for reasons unknown then
We were nothing like I was with you
I was merely seeking fame
And as time went by I realised instead
I loved the guy who had no name
Chorus:
Four years gone
And I wonder why
I was the slut I used to be
All these memories running through my head
Of him and you and me
I thought I had the perfect love
Til I watched you ride away
Then I saw you crash your motorbike
Your last breaths dying away
About the Song:
This idea just popped into my head. The story follows a girl who is in a love triangle with two boys, one of whom has just died via a motorbike crash. Four years before his death, they were very good friends, but she had romantic feelings for him which she kept private. Then, suddenly, a handsome and popular guy arrives on the scene and she instantly falls in love with him, becoming popular and forgetting about her friend, although her heart beats every now and then for reasons she cannot imagine; truly, she has no feelings for this handsome guy; she is just seeking popularity. Her less popular friend gives up on her and rides away on his motorbike, only to crash and die. The girl looks back on her past two relationships, wondering why she kept her true feelings for her friend a secret and why she was such an attention seeker.
The music for Four Years Gone, although not fully written yet, is written by a friend of mine, Ross Thompson. The completed version may or may not include the word "slut".
